Learning to be more patient.....

Although it will only be going 2 years of waiting to conceive, still it feels like more than that. I am one of those who is suffering from Polycistic Ovaries. Don't be fooled by the term "Cyst" it is far from me having an ovarian cancer (but according to studies, it might lead to that if this will not be cured). I was diagnosed with POVs since year 2004. But I was cleared from that after 3 months of medication. My OB declared that i am ready to conceive whenever i want it to happen. But I asked myself, "Am I?" The thought of getting pregnant, craving for foods for a lot of times, giving birth and a lasting sleepless nights, i kind of feel scared (aside from the fact that i am not married yet, i never welcomed the idea of me having a baby out of wedlock, although i really have nothing against those people, para sa akin lang un.) Anyways, let's move forward to today. After going through some lab tests again, I am back for having POVs. You might ask if my husband is doing his share, and yes he does (atleast we're both into Oplan: Baby!, he...he...he..), i'm quite happy that he is cooperative and agreed to consult a Urologist. After a series of tests on his part, we found out that he has a problem too (i don't want to get into details na ha kasi syempre dyahe un sa mga lalake). the least that we can do is to console each other and pray harder that God would listen to our prayers. Some says that our dream of having a baby (of our own) is not impossible to achieve. With the kind of technology available to us now (and with constant prayers), i am confident we will be an answered prayer .

I just want to share these prayers that I have found while browsing the web. This inspired me from posting this blog. I am also hoping to reach out to those people who have ,in one way or another, experienced or is going through trials such as ours.

Infertility Prayer

Good St. Gerard, powerful intercessor before the throne of God,
wonder-worker of our day, we call upon you and seek your aid. You know
that this marriage has not as yet been blessed with a child and how
much [husband’s name] and [wife’s name] desire this gift. Please
present these fervent pleas to the Creator of life from whom all
parenthood proceeds and beseech Him to bless this couple with a child
whom they may raise as His child and heir of heaven. Amen.

Prayer to St. Gerard for Motherhood

O glorious Saint Gerard, powerful intercessor before God, and wonder
worker of our day, I call upon you and seek your help. You who always
fulfilled God's will on earth, help me to do God's holy will. Intercede
with the Giver of life, from whom all parenthood proceeds, that I may
conceive and raise children who will please God in this life, and be
heirs to the kingdom of heaven. Amen.

St. David's Infertility Prayer

Thank you, Lord for all the blessings in my life. Help me to remember
them as I face the challenges of infertility. I pray that I can
surrender myself into your hands. Let me accept the reality of this
situation and have the wisdom and courage to take action where I can.
Strengthen my body, mind and spirit to endure the trials of
infertility. Keep me ever mindful of the needs of others and grant us
your peace. Amen.

In The Face Of Fertility Challenges - (my favorite of all the prayers)

Lord, help me to know that You are enough. Take my eyes off of
myself. Take my eyes off of the child I desire. Help me to delight
myself in You. Mold the desires of my heart to be in line with Your
will. I don't want to need to be a mother more than I need to
be your humble, obedient child. I don't want wanting to have a baby to
be a stumbling block between You and me anymore.

Lord, I want to give this desire, this drive, this ache up to You. Help
me not to snatch it back as I so often do with the burdens I place in
Your hands. Help me to be truly content with Your will and Your timing.

Lord, You know that I still desire a baby - someone to mold, teach,
train, shape, guide, and help to grow in You. But until the day You
give me that joyous blessing, help me to grow in You. Let me reach out to those around me. Let me witness and minister to the children You place in my path.

Lord, if adoption is the path You would have us take, prepare our
hearts, and prepare the child who will share our home. If adoption is
not Your will for our lives, keep me from pushing ahead of Your plan.
Help me to stay submitted to my husband's will, and to Your will. If we
are headed in the wrong direction, change our hearts.

Thank You for lifting my burden. Help me to keep You first! Let me seek Your face daily, and let me know that You are enough!

.... lord, help me to be more patient.....